It's been great to write so often again, but I doubt I will be doing much posting this coming week. I'm leaving on a plane in a couple of days, leaving K to keep the home front running. I am not looking forward to heading to COLD winter again but it's worth it to see my parents.
I think this will be my 3rd or 4th flight this year, which may match my total of flights for the prior 10-15 years... I've purchased a new set of earplanes, which are such a great thing with the way my right ear drum refuses to adapt to changing pressure. I found out on a flight a couple of years ago just why babies scream their heads off - it HURTS to have pressure like that and I couldn't get my ear to pop or equalize at all. Earplanes help and prevent most of the pressure problem for me, and I'm thankful for that.
I've been cooking up a storm this weekend, so K will have some leftovers to work with for a few days. He's more than capable of cooking, especially after my months of bedrest with Nina, but I like to help. I hope that Robbie will be okay, especially since we've been unsuccessful in figuring out what is bothering him lately. He doesn't want to be touched at all, leading us to think he's itching or something like that, but we can't pinpoint the problem at all. (And yes, we've even been to the doctor!) It's a bit frustrating, especially since when Robbie tends to have more behavior problems when he's feeling like something hurts.
But it will be okay. It has to be, because I need to go. I need to go lay eyes on my parents and see mom for myself. I need to hug her gently, sit beside her and listen. I need to be there for my dad and help him if only for a few days. I know it helps them, and it helps me too. I wish things were different but for now I am just grateful that my mom is still doing as well as she is. If you'd told me a year ago, that my mom would still be living with stage 4 cancer after a year? I didn't know what to expect. We still don't. You can't know. But you can take advantage of the time you have been given... and I will.
If you'd like to pray - pray for me to have the right words, for peace, for healing for Robbie, and for my mom. I hope I have safe smooth travels, but more than that, I pray that my presence will be a blessing for my parents.